I’m currently under construction hopefully to be stronger and better.
The info: 1/30/2022 to Apr 20, 2024 is 811 days since Liberty left her body on this earth.
Also on 4/20/24 will be 200 days sober. In the next 20 school days, I will become a Longhorn Legend as I will have been here for 20 years.
20 days until school is out and, we begin summer school.
I made a big decision to consolidate my debt and begin paying more on my debts on February 6th. I did take up a lot of debt when the divorce went through. That was my choice, so I needed a better system to get this debt paid off. This also means that I do not have any extra money in case of an emergency. I believe it will be okay.
I had planned to move from the apartment in May, but after a minor assault on February 18. A man I did not know followed me from the parking lot of my apartment, then up the three flights of stairs, and grabbed a part of my body that he had no right to touch. I had my cat, Monkey, in his carrier as he had been visiting some other cats. He was in my left hand, and my keys were in my right hand in a defense stance. Over and over. I kept saying “NO! NO! NO! It all happened so fast. He raced down the stairs and disappeared. None of my neighbors came out to figure what was happening.
I moved out on March 11th. I needed to wait to get a plan for moving. The police and apartment managers were aware. The male was put in jail weeks after I moved out. There were five other females this man had touched and/or followed in our apartment complex. These are just the ones we knew of.
I am happily co-habitating and I am safe. Grateful to have been able to experienceliving alone.
It’s going to be okay. I am so grateful that nothing worse happened. Monkey was okay. I was okay.
My short term memory is doing better. I have been so worried about this. Grateful for the breakthrough a few weeks ago. That gives me great relief and hope.
I made many silent promises while Liberty was leaving this world, and none of this was following these promises. I have been trying to be careful. Thank you for your kind understanding as I am a “cracked” work in process. Special thanks to Mariah and Heather who have been supportive and understanding while I try to work through these recent events. My guardian angel has to be worn out.
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Long term grief is real. I will continue to keep tryng to be better, and be more careful. I am trying. There are some people who will hold this against me, and I pray I am wrong about that. I am completely human and fallible, but I am trying.
