Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Going....



Libby and her awesome Speech Therapy assistant.  Libby loved her!


Make a Wish Granters who are working so hard to make Libby's
Wish happen without any hiccups!

Our Wish Sponsors are Twist a Wish.  Very sweet folks who hold Rodeo's and donate the proceeds to a chosen Make A Wish recipient.  They are awesome and I can't wait to go to many of their future rodeos to
Show our support and repay what I can...
We now have our tickets and itinerary.  Guess it is really going to happen.  I have been so terribly nervous. Mostly for the unknown of how we are going to move Libby around and how the travel will affect her.  I know it will be okay.  As a wise young man reminded us, "Even if she has the worst day ever, it's the worst day ever but you're in Rome...!"
This is the super cute bag that her wish Granters bought for her.  We have been so blessed by the patience that the Make a Wish people have shown us. 

I hate it that Mariah was not able to go as now more than ever I want Mariah with us.  That is one guilt.  She has been carrying the weight of Libby's illness as heavily as I have.  Would change it all if I could.

I have not taken a personal
Day- ever.  I am
Overrun with leaving my kiddos for this trip.  Rachael is in the same boat.   Although she finished out her year today and will not have a final, end of year good bye with her kids,  even missing graduation, Rachael is ready without reservations! My hero! 

I have spent a great amount of time wanting to slap people who told
Me how lucky I am or that they'd trade me.  It's innocent enough, but it still hurts.  As if I wouldn't give up a million trips for Libby's health.  As if I wouldn't take back whatever I missed that made my child sick.  My child
Is not lucky, she is suffering from something that my lack of education caused.  Am I guilty, yes.  How can I not be?  But the sun rises tomorrow whether I beat myself up or not.  Might as well stay focused and driven.  

She is blessed and loved, but not lucky.  I am full of gratitude and will spend the rest of my life volunteering for Make a Wish.  We are being immensely blessed by this trip and I thank you all. 
 
After a very stressful day at school yesterday my campus through with an amazing cash gift. We are blessed by my colleagues who are amazing.  Thank you all.  Thank you to both campuses- Caprock and Hereford High. 

Praying that my students don't kill their sub. Praying that my coworkers know how much I respect them.
 Praying that all of our  family, both two and four legged, will
be safe.  
Praying to have the opportunity to discuss Lyme at least Once on the trip. Praying for peace and a lifting of my weary and burdened spirit. 
Praying that Rachael doesn't completely freak on the plane rides and/or kill
me in my stressed out state. 
Laugh a little and let it go.  And imagine this beautiful, sweet child
and the many spirits she is reaching.  
And love on Mariah since I won't be able
to.  She is trying to be so very strong and I think she really needs a whole bunch of familial love! 
And love on both of our Mom's who will be worried. 

Blessings to all!