Waiting

I don’t think waiting comes naturally to most of us. For me, sitting and waiting is torture.  Being Liberty’s  mom had taught me many things, but especially this: waiting is good, it is being idle that chafes.  Just sitting in my fears and worries without any little tasks to do is torture. 

Today, Libby and I are sitting in the hospital parking lot while Rachael gets a procedure done.  There are several inches of snow and ice already and more looming. So, we sit.    

Things I do to pass time:

Thank you notes

Love cards (get well cards)

Add notes to journal 

Update calendar

Clean out vehicle (warmer weather)

Make time intensive phone calls 

Nap

Waiting has taken in new levels due to the Corona virus.  We have been back and forth to many appointments where I get to go I with Libby and no one else is allowed. Or, Libby and I are waiting while Rachael goes in alone. If I’m waiting for Libby, I have trained myself for immense patience and I bring Liberty and Ileana safe snacks which keep us both from getting fussy. 

My faith tells me that it is in the inner stillness of waiting that we gain our strength. I know that my doubts, hurts, fears and regrets can be subdued when I focus on the beauty of the moment. Focus on doing the best I can in that moment. That is when I am reminded of the promise in today. All else can be handled if I can find my way to that inner stillness.  (Since outer stillness isn’t going to happen for me.)

Waiting is an opportunity for growth. 

We are all waiting on various things, people, or events. Some we have control over and others we do not.  Sometimes we are waiting on ourself to gain the confidence needed to push toward a goal.   Or to step out of our comfort zone to give something a try.  Or waiting to forgive to get over something painful.   Or waiting for the peak of positive COVID cases to wane.  Whatever it is you’re waiting for, the fortitude is there to work towards what is desired. 

In this day, Libby and I listened to a favorite playlist and  several Podcasts that make her laugh.  In every moment where she is safe, and happy, and reasonably healthy; we are blessed.  

**Rachael’s procedure went well. Now we wait for news of her upcoming surgery.** 

Waiting is an opportunity for growth.